He writes: "O Israel, wait and watch for God---with God's arrival comes love,..with God's arrival comes generous redemption." It's pretty amazing and encouraging and uplifting (cheesy word but I've got no better word right now) especially after reading in the beginning of the Psalm where it says: "If you, God, kept records on wrongdoings, who would stand a chance? As it turns out, forgiveness is your habit, and that's why you're worshiped.....I pray to God---my life a prayer---and wait for what he'll say and do. My life's on the line before God, my Lord, waiting and watching till morning."
I want to live as if my life is on the line before God, but it seems like I'm the one who's wanting to be in charge of where this line is in my life. I want to say where I spend all of my time and energy and rarely seem to be letting the Holy Spirit move in me the way he has in the past. I read much of my journal from about a month ago tonight also and every entry I read, I saw God had answered the prayer I prayed for or requested. It was pretty amazing to see them already answered, b/c in truth, I don't think I actually believed he would answer them, i think I just hoped he would but assumed I wasn't spiritual enough for them too. I guess that's another thing I need to nail down---it's not about me, it's all about his mercy and grace and forgiveness and generous redemption and all-consuming, all-powerful and perfect love. Good night. Borgess Hospital is calling me to bed...my first day back starts tomorrow morning. Go Service Associates (S.A.)!!!