christian bookstores and me.

i want to support other christians. i want to give my money away to people who only buy t-shirts that say "I'm not going to be left behind, are you?" on the front. i want to support my brothers and sisters in Christ. really, i do. however, in my case, it takes just one trip to the local family christian bookstore to take that desire away completely (or just stamp it out and squeeze it to near-death for a while). is it just my area or are the people who work at these places just not like jesus is/was/would be (in my eyes anyways) at all!? they are either rude, mean, and piously reserved...or over-the-top-campy-cheery, smiling at you with a "i'm-only-smiling-because-i'm-a-christian-and-im'-working-here-and-that's-what-you-expect-me-to-do" type of expression. maybe i'm being judgemental and haven't explored the thousands of chrisitan bookstores out there with people who are honest, authentic and transparent about their faith; i don't know. however, i will say that if i wasn't a christian already, visiting a christian bookstore would give me one more reason for me not to join the club. that is, the family members' perks club. okay, i'm being just as mean as they are...i better stop before i relive the unpleasant monday experience in my head again.

oh, and happy birthday to blakeley...my little sister who just aged up to two full ten-finger hands!!! i love you bay! --love, nay.